why spring ain't *giving* this month
when the light at the end of the tunnel isn't as glorious as we hoped it would be [aries szn '24 tarot]
i’ve basically spent the best of the last 8 minutes gazing out my window. i can see the sun gently bathing the different stages of flower blossoms with its early spring rays, all of this while jazz covers of the studio ghibli soundtrack delight my ears. these are the days that, most probably, the whole of britain has been waiting for.
i’m starting to almost miss my cat’s dinner time because i’d gotten into the habit of waiting for the sky to get completely dark for a good couple hours before i feed him. so of course, this could only mean one thing: spring is coming. for real this time. not that fraudulent warmth we’ve been getting in february (yikes).
and so as citizens of capitalism, we are getting fed ideas and stories of new beginnings. time to get those new pastel floral dresses!
same goes for the magically inclined, because it’s aries season — the first sign that’s birthed into the zodiac. time to set those intentions to manifest for the rest of the year!
i dunno about you… i personally get pressured in these times of the year because of all those stories. even in spiritual communities that i’m a part of that like to emphasise following one’s intuition, there’s still a sense of ‘should’.
well, since we’re a part of nature and the cosmos, we should be feeling this sense of renewal, courage, inspiration and zeal for life, right?! cus that’s where the sun is now.
and that’s the reason i was so depressed in the winter, right?! cus it’s too cold and there’s no sun… right?! RIGHT???!
based on the cards that i pulled, looks like i’m not the only one who isn’t necessarily feeling the supposedly universal energy of new beginnings that runs through us all.
the 4 of cups came up here as guidance for the next 30 days or so. it’s one of those cards that many people roll their eyes to because this is a card of stillness. of course, living under the structures of capitalism, we have absolutely been conditioned to restlessness in the absence of movement. so the dread is understandable.
i checked what’s making us bored and impatient, and my hunch was confirmed. the card in the middle of the deck drew me in. when i grabbed that card and flipped it... it was the ace of pentacles — the card of new beginnings and opportunities! i swear i simply cannot make this up y’all, lmfao.
spring just *ain’t* giving this month because unlike our preconceived concepts of what this time of year should be, we are actually still coming out of the winter. it’s literally only the beginning. like you can’t expect someone who just broke their leg and haven’t been using it for 3 months to suddenly be able to run once it’s healed. we’re still on that transitional period, and we seem to need a bit more space to adjust. the 4 of cups asks us to use this time to reflect and reevaluate so we can move with more intention. not just running for the sake of not being stagnant.
the 4 of cups advises us to listen. really listen in. this is not the time to make assumptions, to do things the way it’s usually done, to say things that are usually said in certain situations. becauseee how many of you just automatically revert to giving advice to your friend who came to tell you about something shitty that happened to them? (go on, leave a comment) did they even ask you for advice? most of the time, we all really just need someone to listen.
so listen to yourself. listen to your breath. ask what it is that you need in this moment. what can you do to surrender to the current and make life easy for yourself?
on a more practical note, be aware of all the ads and content that you consume, cus they’re gonna feed us ideas that might not align with our own individual energy cycle. of course, during the winter, all we want is the sun and we like to blame the absence of it for our feelings of despair. don’t be surprised if the glorious warmth doesn’t actually help as much as we think it would.
i’d love to go deeper into this… though in all honesty, i am hungover from having 2 pints. one of which was only a half pint. and i am bleeding from the inside — woohoo! no wonder i’m overthinking about my existence! so do excuse me if the structure doesn’t make too much sense lol.
this is a chaotic goodbye from me,
tika x
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