at the precipice of the expansion portal
teasing you on change & surrender + gemini szn '24 guidance
hey folks!
it’s that time of year again where my writing gets incredibly spotty.
maybe because i have committed myself to writing fortnightly in the first 3 months of the year. i am choosing to just surrender to my own unique energy cycle and not force myself too much on showing up despite being uninspired to write, which was the intention that kept me writing in those months.
if i’m being honest, i feel like i am going through, in retrospect, exactly what the card that represents this year’s gemini season. so spoiler alert — it’s about stepping into a new adventure. i just need a lot of time to process as i surrender to change. i’d love to talk about it while at the same time feeling like i shouldn’t + i’m not ready to.
now, i am a gemini (so yes, we have entered my season!) and i am guilty as charged. exposing every single detail of my life to everyone who would talk to me. i can’t help myself, i just get so excited with a lot of things and i always want to share that excitement!
but around last year when i was — and i am somewhat ashamed to say this — working my arse off on my goals, i was diagnosing why the fuck i still haven’t mAniFeStEd my dreams that i visualised every single f—ing day.
i learned from dr. k of healthy gamer that one of the reasons why new year’s resolutions don’t work is because we tell people about it > get praised / encouraged > our brain goes “aight folks we did it! we done” *dusts hands*. because apparently we get incredibly motivated by acknowledgment from other humans.
so… i am trying to keep my mouth shut and process this in my journal. for now.
tarot card of the szn: gemini '24
i honestly don’t even know how many times the 3 of wands have come up in a reading for me over the past couple weeks. we’re really at the precipice of the expansion portal.
in the light seer’s tarot deck that i used for this reading here, we see someone walking through 3 poles of torches (wands) with their surfboard on hand, looking out into the sea. according to this card, while we are already on our feet, it’s not necessarily time for action. now i don’t surf, but i would think that you’d wanna get your bearings first before you go out into the roaring sea. look around, dip your toes, how does the water feel? how big do the waves look? have you got everything you need?
this season is a liminal space where we are getting ready to catch those waves.
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